我想当傻瓜不当天才！！！！

我觉得人好奇怪哦。。。。

人往往只会羡慕别人，却看不到自己有的。
看到别人幸福，都觉得自己怎么那么不幸。
看到别人有的，自己怎么都没有。
看到别人会的，怎么自己都不会。

自己有的都看不到，就只会怨天怨地怨别人。
人真的太贪心了，就只会希望有更好得更多的，
永远不会知足，懂得珍惜自己拥有的

但我知道，我非常明白
不应该去比较自己没有的东西。。
应该去看看自己有的。。。
这样不是过得更快乐吗？

这么简单的道理我明白，
就因为明白所以我说我快疯了。。。
明知道不该做比较，
可是心里就是常常会不由自主地拿出那把尺来衡量。

我的心和脑正在打仗，
我的理智告诉我我不应该比较，但是心里却有种莫名的难过
可能是自卑心在作祟吧。。。
它让我放不开心里的那把尺。

有时真觉得当傻瓜真不错。。。。
’傻人有傻福’这话真得太对了。。。
我也希望我可以傻傻的过生活。。。
什么也不想什么也不知道那该有多好啊。。。。。。。

现在明白了自古以来天才怎么那么短命了
因为脑想太多了。。。。。。。

Kpop forever!!! I LUV KPOP! ^^

What is the hottest and most popular song now in KOREA?? Here let me introduce a few which I personally love!!

Outsider- Loner

He's so COOL, named the fastest rapper in korea nw! you gonna hear him!

2ne1 - I dont care

Junior of Big bang, 2Ne1 is the latest HOTTEST gal group in Korea now. They are COOL, showing the guys the GIRL Power in Kpop nw....Having strong backing of her seniors like 1tym, Big Bang etc, these little gals aint making us disappointing. Topping most of the charts in music performance shows.. Guys b careful!!

Lee Seung Gi- Will you Marry me

Our boy next door, Seung gi is back with a digital single. With the sweetest look combining the sweetest lyrics makes this song a perfect for proposal song! Being the song of a drama, this song top most of the charts in music shows even without Seunggi performing. ^^

8eight- Goodbye my love

8eight is back with another album. This song is REALLY great esp. when you listen to them singing!! They are GREAT singers and I love their powerful vocal.

Ilac-Someone else better (featuring Chae rin)

A cute melody song by Ilac. A mixture of classical music with pop music. The melody caught my attention and I really love this song. Though the melody sounded so cute and sweet, the lyrics is just the opposite.

Last but not least, hw can we forgotten abt the boygroup?? hahah.... Although they have already finished their promotion bt still their songs still ring in our mind.......

2pm- Again & Again + I hate you (Goodbye performance)

A group big boys! Dun belittle them cos they also have strong backing like JYP, the producer who made Rain and Wonder Girls where they are now..... 2pm took the gals crazy early this year with the above 2 songs and their sexy dance moves.... Dun bother rmbring their faces just listen to them sing and dance will do.... haha!

事业有成，做个有用的人是什么意思？

人人常说一定要事业有成，做个有用的人
可是真正事业有成的人能有几个？
而有用的人又是什么意思？


事业有成是什么意思呢？
我很困惑。。。。 我不明白？
事业有成是有一份高薪又有前途的工作吗？
可是高薪又有前途的工作，不一定是你喜欢又快乐的


那么如果你的工作是你喜欢又快乐的
但是薪水又低又没有前途的一份工作
难道就不是一份好差事了吗？


我不知道我要什么，
只希望能找到我喜欢的真的有那么难吗？
是不是就随便找一份工作，每天埋头苦干
每年就希望能得到加薪升职
一做就是十几年？？这样就是事业有成吗？


我承认这世上或我生边有非常多的朋友都是为了钱而在打一份工
为的只是养家或是因为人到了一定年龄就是一定要工作啊
真的有那么可悲吗？我不知道是我奇怪还是我想太多了。。。
有一点忧郁。。。。每次在新加坡就会这样。。。。好讨厌


家人没给我压力但生边的人和物都在无形中给了我压力
我没了生命的原动力，没了目标，我不知道我要什么！！！
不要问我现在要干什么。。。将来要做什么。。。
我知道你是关心但我不知道。。。
我真的不知道，如果我知道未来会发生什么事的话
那我就可以去算命了还在这里干嘛？


所以我说无心的言语比刀还要伤人
是不是一个人过会比较好？
可能这就是我向往的吧
所以我喜欢在韩国的日子
可能作个太空人到月球去是最好的吧。。。。。

My job and so......

YOYO.... if you havent heard that I am back in Singapore for "bad" liao then you out so outdated!!!

I have been publishing in my facebk and msn msg that I am back liao so the next time u saw me on msn dun keep asking me if i m in korea or back liao, understand??!! REally very sick of answering this qns!

Ok, gotten into my job just 1 wk after I came back frm Korea cos Jolene had to train me before I take on her duty when she go and deliver.... *bit outdated though cos Jolene already delivered Jemma liao* So here I am back in Sg and joinin back the working crowd again rushing in n out of the train every morning....

Its been about 1 month into the job.... I am really sorry to say bt its really stressful and I knw I wont like it.... Perhaps its all in me?? I myself rejected the job hence its nt doing any good thinkin that i dun like it...... 1st of all, i m really stressful committing to do something i knw i m lousy with... yah me n my powderful ENGLISH language.... haiz..... Do u knw i even have nightmare hearin the sentence "write a letter to XXX"..... I have phobia sending out each email and going into meeting......

Its so stressful to sit in a meeting listening to bombastic words flyin across my head! 1st of all, I didnt knw wat to expect in the meeting, 2ndly those words that I probably nv thought appear in a dictionary came popping out of ppl's mouth n yet I have to take the minutes without knwin hw to spell, next names of ppl who everyone seems to knw and I cant even spell them?! I have to stare at my notes taken during meetings to try and figure out what i m tryin to spell and e way its pronounce..... I have to practically look into the mirror every morning when i wake up telling myself "i can do it if i try" and yet whenever i get out of a meeting i felt even more lost and demoralise.....

Sometimes its just getting scolded for someting which I havent done?? Ok for tat part just have to swallow it and pretend like an idiot cos I m trained by Cat liao ah.... hahaha *cat if u readin tis I really meant it frm the bottom of my heart thanking u*

There is so many things to take note and knw bt yet i didnt knw where to start from? Its really so taxin... Perhaps 2 yrs of break is really havin a BIG impact to me nw.... I do not knw hw long i can hang on there... I m tryin to hang on becos I knw ppl need me to.... I knw everyone is tryin to help out bt i dont even knw wat to do hw can i tell ppl hw to help?

I am into DEEP sleep every nite, I guess its becos my energy r all drained out using too much of my brains..... I am trying and I hope u understand that.... I m really sorry if i cant do it... Pls dun blame me if I decided to give up cos believe me I tried my best...... I will try my best to do wat i can at least hanging there.....

Frankly speaking if I can write so well I will be teachin in korea liao lor.... Why do u tink i have to come back to Sg? I tink i knw why i like korea..... Maybe becos when I m there my english is the best HAHAHAHA!! Think i m getting a bit crazy from the stress ><

End of Korea dream and a conclusion....

An extremely outdated post... hahah not becos i m lazy but becos my pc went mad and was pronounced dead..... In case any of you who still did not get my msg yet or so.... Yes, I am in Singapore now Yes I have return from Korea and is in SINGAPORE noW!!!!!!!haiz..... yes returning from paradise.....and back to reality which is TO WORK....

After exactly a 20-months of stay in Korea this is what I had concluded and learnt throughout my days in Korea:

• i learnt that i can REALLY be independent: staying by myself, cleaning my own personal space, washing the laundry, managed my finances, mind my own businesses, travel by myself
• of cos improved in my korean
• getting to know friends from around the world
  
• to know the importance of families and friends in my life
  
• the importance of technology (eg: laptop) HAHAHAHA!!
• the enjoyment of being a student again (of cos I REALLY treasured tat alot!)
• to know Korea and her culture better

I am proud of myself and also really thankful that I had actually taken the step to Korea to open up my eyes to this world.... This trip was really an eye-opener to me and I had learnt alot of things and friends whom I had met during this trip which will always remain in my memories even if i pass on. I will and had not regretted to put in my money and time for this trip of mine. If you ask me again would I still love to stay in Korea given a chance I would still say YES, but of cos its not the best place to stay on earth but its culture n stuff really attracts me and that is the biggest reason.

I miss and would like to visit this country whom I would name it as 'woori's country' soon..... KOREA, I will be back.....

Just a simple dinner... dun tell me weird tingS!!!!

Was practically going CRAZY the begining of this week... Why are there so many weird ppl in KOREA?!! Leave me alone I just want to rot in my little cosy room, slackin my remaining time in Korea before I return to SG to join in the crowd for the TRAINs n buses from 9 to 5..........

K, this person whom I knew thru my sis... Was none other then a SISTER's friend.... Met him only once together with my sis, ok a normal korean guy who is totally opposite of me.... He hated korea and wanted to work in Sg... He tried bt failed so he's nw back in Korea like hw i will be in another few more weeks time. ><

The restaurant was at Apgujeong and the night before I told Junwoo I would be ard there so he said he will meet up with me after my meeting with the friend as his studio is nearby. The dinner was fine and everything. We were gossipping abt another korean guy whom we both hated... Soon it was late and Junwoo was off work, he came over and we were at the cafe. Tat guy told me he has no friends so I tot maybe I can introduce Junwoo to him. So I asked them over and introduce them to each other..... and everything was so WEIRD! He stopped talking... The atmosphere was really weird..... Junwoo was not feeling well so he was also very quiet... haiz..... I DUNO I tot it was too cold or wat?!

Anyway, thats all. After that day, I was shopping ard with Ah han when he called me again asking what i m doing and he said he will call back lata. That nite i missed his call as I didnt heard my cell ringing... oppzz... So the next day, he called again..... Yah this time, I was resting at hm cos I was running ard wif ah Han for his uni stuff the day b4...... I told him i was really tired and wanted to stay at hm (ok guys u knw hw HOMELY i was!!) HE keeps on nagging and stuff... I too didnt want to go out. HE insisted and said he will come over to Sinchon (the district i lived in). Nw he's getting on my nerves...... As he is on his way, I msged him telling him i really DUN wan to go out! I think he sensed my anger and called immediately. This time he totally toned down, he sounded like a poor puppy sayin someting bad happened to him n he has no friends etc. BL***Y a** I hated this kind of treatment so I told him I just have dinner and off I m going hm to rest.

At the dinner, he started talking weird tings...... Like how nice I was, how kind I was, he was so sad that he only get to knw me nw and i m leavin soon, how great a friend i would b etc. OH MY I haTE SUCH things.....if u were my friends u knw I DUN like such comments etc..... Bt anyway its jus sounded so weird when those words came out of a GUY's mouth... sounded so NIANG!!! TAT WAS A torture! Worst of all when we were setting our bill the waiter asked where I was from (cos both of us were speakin english all the time), I told him and he replied by saying "u r such a beauty" with a smile *VOMIT* I was like WAT's going on tONITE! I thanked him for his compliments and turn ard and HE WAS there sayin tats true and I can c u r quite popular among the korean guys ah?!

TAT NITE was just a TORTuRE for me...... It shld b good receiving compliments bt weird I just feel so WEIRD tat nite..... By the way, i had indigestion tat nite?!!!!!!!! Can u imagine that........ *FAINTS*

HEY man, I treated all my friends equally b it gals or guys.... I will go up the mountain down the fry pan (in chinese) for my friends bt tat doesnt mean I LIKE u! I mean i only do that for people who i deem as my FRIEND! cos u knw some r jus dun worth being friends at all.... :P

*PS y didnt i meet like some celebrities or so?! hahha*

Last week was a busy week!

Oh yah my sis came over to Korea for a biz trip just last week......

So me as usual gonna b the personal tour guide bringing her ard as she is uncontactable and cant speak korean at all....... It was really tiring rushing here n there with her. She had a tight schedule but wished to meet up with people who are staying OUTSIDE seoul...... I was like totally exhausted as I have to wake up very early in the morning (ok i have not been waking up at 7am in the morning since I stayed in Korea) and rush ard via public transport.....And worst of all, I suffered a stiff neck after a bad sleeping position..... But I have no choice I cant let my sis go on her own (though she assure that she would be fine alone) so I tacked along to meet up with all her friends......... PHEW...... I was like travelling out of Seoul in practically 2 days!!!! First we went to Pyeongtaek and then to Pocheon...........

Though tiring I had fun.... Sleeping over at a korean hse, visiting a HERB farm, taking lots of PHOTOS!!! Thanks to my sis, I had FREE delicious dinners!! Thanks to her I had a chance to visit an exhibition held in KOrea and even had a badge with my name as the exhibitor!! COOL right?!!!

I dunno I always flared at my sis when she stayed over with me... AS u knw I am a clean FREAK and she the kind of ROUGH-it-out person.... I will always complaint this and that.... But sis u knw its not ur fault just that i m a CLEAN FreAK!! ITS all Paul's fault! hahaha!! I dunno why perhaps she's my kin tats y I always have no patient with her... I tink i will also flare up if it was my parents here....... I duno but tats me?!! Perhaps they r my CLOSEST kins tats y i behave like a spoilt brat infront of them.... I tink a leopard cant change its spots.... >_<

If I had the money I would like to treat my sis to a nice hotel or motel room with bathtub which she love to have....... But too sorry I cant do so nw therefore she had to stay over in my sMALL pathetic room and tryin to hide away frm the miser owner of mine...

Lastly went shopping with her......... Haiz I really cant stand her... She always dun mind payin high price for things she bought for other ppl but is such a miser to herself!!! Not as if she cant afford the things but she jus cant bear to spend a little more on herself!! I hope she can jus pamper herself a little more........ Why are u being so HARD on urself???

I wished i can earn alot of money so I can treat her to a luxury holiday which she love to!! I tink it's my turn to repay her love and support in my life!

THIS IS LOVE! I LOVE this pic!!! (^ - ^)

Was searchin the internet when I saw this picture...... This picture really caught my eyes..... and I really like the concept the photographer had and the way the photo is taken...... If I have to criticize then probably the photographer should have carefully pick the page in the dictionary (or so) that explains what LOVE is or have LOVE written in all different languages.........

Bt anyway just LOVE this pic so am posting it here!

LAPTOP is down..........

haiz....... NEver have I missed the laptop so much in my little cosy room!!!!

YEsh, the laptop is down for almost 3 days since SAt....... I hope the next time when I turn it on it will surivie..... >_<

I guess my life will totally b gone if I go without TV, computer, Internet!!!!!!!! Now I m feeling it!! I cant play games, I cant watch shows as and when I like, I cant upload photos...... LIFE IS SO BORING!!!!!!!!!!! now all I can do is to watch TV, dramas, variety shows, news, movies over and over again......... LET me tell you I can even memorize their scripts by now........... *faintz*

LAST resort is to FORMAT the laptop............ Hopefully by then it works perfectly well...... I will miss all those programs tat was once in it!!!!!!!

Hey Tiff , you around, you reading this??? Havent seen you online or knw abt ur howabout since you left for sg....... How are you now in sg? Found a job liao? How's life getting on???? Miss you man! Miss the time when we have chat in ur warm cosy room....... I always tink of u whenever I go for my dinner......... Miss the time when I shouted out to you thru the small window........ Miss the time when we go shopping ard for cheap stuff........

Anyway dun worry I will be joining you soon in sg...... Hopefully by then you have already found a nice job and settle down in it so u can treat me to a dinner or so ah hahahah!! Counting on you......

My 2009 resolutions.......

erm........ maybe abit too late to write this down since its already into Feb of 2009... bt anyway just penning it down so that i can relook at this at the end of 2009 and hopefully I completed or at least be 80% fulfill with what I set to be! Like what people always say dun just have goals and tink abt achieving them just by thinking and doing nothing......

Of cos what we learnt in business planning, you have got to set goals first and then action plans to make sure you achieve what you set to be.... So here we go!

1) To pay back the money I borrowed frm my dad and sis for my Korean studies (100% or at least 80%)

-to save 1/3 of my salary every month for the debt

2) To find a job which I am happy in (in terms of jobscope, salary, colleagues)

-Look through at potential organisation which I am interested in, understand the relevant departments and their operations

-Prepare my resume/ CV, sending them in/ going for interviews

-Ever to get into a job, always tell myself in the morning when i look into the mirror b4 going to work I love who I am and what I do

3) To buy myself the Samsung Omina phone

-to save 10% of the remaining money I have left with after deducting debts, expenses

-DO NOT SPEND unless its a LIFE or DEATH decision

4) To obtain the Korean language proper certification

-to do 1 test paper weekly (achieving to score the require scores)

-to watch Korean drama/show in korean only without subtitles at least 1 hr daily

-to write diary in korean (maybe not everyday bt at least once in 3 days)

-to read one korean article everyday

5) To love my family and friends

-to be able to buy something for use at home with my OWN money

-to treat my parents and sister to restaurant on special occasion

-to visit grandmother once 2 weeks (i knw its too little bt i tink i shld be more realistic so this is wat i aim)

-to meet up with friends average 5times in yr 2009

WELL thats up for yr 2009 in the meantime, just wish me all the best hopefully I can fulfill all of them!!!!!!! I am all energetic to CHEONG! THE BIGGEST AIM of 2009 is $! kekkee ^^

YESterday, the worst MOST SWAYEST day of my entire 25 yrs of living...

YESTERDAY was perhaps the most terrible day of my entire 25 yrs of living....... Here are a series of wat happened:

1st: I had a presentation on this coming Fri so I had planned to do up my presentation slide during the long holiday weekend. BUT who knws my laptop decided to also go on holiday leaving me almost going MAD.......

2nd: I tried all means and way to start up the laptop but it just didnt work. I have no choice bt to try my luck going to sch to work on it. BUT the thing is its a public holiday so the sch might b closed. I went to sch, ok nt so bad the sch was nt totally closed (bt the computer labs were all closed). So I have to make do with the computer in the corridor standing there doing my presentation in the cold (no heater). I had to wear gloves to type in the end.......... *FREEZING* Using the powerpoint in Korean?!! Which I cant really figure out wat was wat?!

3rd: Dunno wat's wrong with the Korea's weather... Whenever there is a holiday or long weekend it is bound to SNOW heavily or temp. drops drastically. SO yesterday was no different, it was about -8 degree.....

4th: Junwoo oftered to help me with my presentation slides after I told him I dun understand the korean so I met him up at Apujeong to go to his studio. It was so cold, I bought myself a warm drink (glass bottle). Guess wat?! When I alighted frm the bus, cos of my gloves (i hate gloves) the glass bottle slipped off my hand and landed on the road rite infrnt of me with a LOUD 'PIANG' yeah u bet everyone at the bus stop looked at me thinking that I threw the bottle out!!

5th: all the above were nt terrible enough until this happened........... I was on my way walking to Junwoo's studio in the small streets which sometimes cars passing by. So suddenly a cat came out trying to cross the small road and a car came by. I thought the cat was going to be bang by the car but luckily the driver stepped on the brake of his car when he saw the cat coming. So the cat pretended like nothin happened, walk by the side and decided to cross in between the back tyre. The driver thought that the cat had moved on then step on the accelerator......... n guess wat?! just besides me I SAW I REALLY SAW and HEAR the tyre went over the cat and the bones of the cat cracking was HEARD! I was totally shocked and I screamed! The driver didnt heard it and went on...... I turned ard and looked at the poor cat.... It was crashed and shaking in pain...... I didnt dare to look and I do not knw wat I can do........... I was so panic, I thought I must get Junwoo over to help so I went as fast as I could to the studio. The ting is its too late, when we returned the cat had already died............ I felt so sorry for nt helping the cat at that very moment......

So am I REALLY sway ?! haiz........ If only I stayed at hm then all these terrible tings would not have happened....... The other things were managable bt the last incident WAS really TERRIBLE! I can still remember the sight and sound of the cat being crashed!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS really TERRIBLE! ><

Met up some OLD school friends (18 Jan 09)

yo yo....... i knw i m late again...... sorry abt that but becos I have been busy running ard shopping for stuff for ppl and catchin friends frm Sg......

YEsh... Talking abt catching friends from Singapore who were here for holiday in Korea. First of all, Catherine and Edwin, my cousin and family in Dec 08 and my old Secondary friends and my cousin on honeymoon recently........

Busy schedule trying to catch those on tour packages... MAN its really tough tracking them down and hunting their hotels...... Ok back to what i wanted to blog about.........

Yesh, this is special to me... This meet up was special to me because after gradutating from my Secondary school I had never met up with secondary school classmates..... Simply becos I deemed that I have nothin much to talk to them and I felt so weird...... So out of the place...

1stly becos when I was in Sec 1 and 2, I was in the worst Express class in my school and in Sec 3, I was then streamed to the 1st class (which I kind of HATED). I was the only girl who was streamed to the top class. So during my final 2 yrs in Secondary sch, I rarely had conversations wif my old classmates not becos I was proud or so but there's hardly any time to talk in school. Furthermore, we were of different ECA and I dun really enjoy going out during weekends. And friends in the top class were rather competitive and 'fake' so I dun really enjoyed hanging out with them though there were a few who were ok........

So the 'Old school friends' I was refering here were my secondary 1 & 2 classmates. I guessed we havent met each other for more than 8 yrs. They were Geokling (my partner in class), Louting and Pihong. They were here on a holiday and I happened to be here in korea too so we arranged to meet up. Geokling was really kind to ofter to help me bring some stuffs back to Singapore. They were here with the tour agency hence I couldnt really showed them around like how I did with Cat and Ed. Nevertheless, the short meet up of about 1.5hrs made us 'ran' ard in Myeongdong trying to get them the cheapest valuable items.

While they were shopping in one of the bag shop, I was there standing looking at them with Pihong besides me (a guy who dun shop like the gals)... Suddenly, I looked at Geokling and Louting and thought about it...... They havent change ABIT at all..... Besides the hair color, they are still the SAME as 8 yrs ago...... Geokling still so panicky, speaking like a bullet and Louting is still as cool as a cucumber..... HAHAHA Just the thought of it reminds me of our sch days...... Its really funny! I then realised they are still the same perhaps the one who had changed is me..... and why am I hiding myself frm them?? I believed we still have many tings in common to gossip abt.... so I told myself when I returned to Singapore, I am going to meet up with them more often... :)

FRIENDS are hard to find, so if you do have one (just one is enough) learn to treasure.

Watched my first korean movie in the theatre: Frozen Flower (SSanghwa Jeom 쌍화점)

YEAH.... Finally get to watch a Korean movie in the theatre of KOREA! yesh, since abt 1 yr and half I have been in Korea and yet get to watch a korean movie in the theatre of KOREA?? Yah, reason being I have no confidence to watch and understand the korean movie, no korean movie so far had made me has the urge to watch it in the theatre once its screening..... (bsides GP 506 which I missed when its screening in Korea last early 2008)

So finally this ONE!! THIS MOVIE made me want to go into the theatre to WATCH! of cos having the companion of my friends (who has abt the same standard as my krn). We went to watch this movie a day after our mid-term exam, on 14 Jan 08. A treat I treated myself for having studied for my exams and my up-coming birthday and probably the first and last time watching a korean movie in KOREA.

Why was this movie chosen?? BECAUSE my favourite actor is starring in it! He is non other than JO IN SUNG who had not appeared on the screen (regardless of big or small) for about 2 yrs. So this is much of a anticipation for his LATEST work and the last before he enters the military T-T..... gonna miss him........

Yah back to the movie. This movie Frozen Flower is based on a true story from Goryeo Dynasty Korea, and takes its title from a song of that era which described the sexual relationships between men and women.

It was a great movie with Jo In sung's marvellous acting skills....Its all worth the wait for 2 yrs for his GREAT works! Besides his acting skill, the storyline is quite unique i shld say, luv the clothings and shooting style. A nice movie i should say... Wat's best of all I was asked to show my ID card when i entered the cinema...... (which means I LOOK younger than 18 hahaha!!)

And most of all I am so PROUD of myself, I could understand about 80% of what they are saying in the movie despite the ancient style of talking hahha!! (a pat on my shoulder for the gd work)

Here's the trailer for the movie:

The synopsis:

In the end of Goryeo era politically manipulated by the Yuan Dynasty, the ambitious King of the Goryeo Dynasty organizes Kunryongwe. Hong Lim, the commander of Kunryongwe, captivates the King of Goryeo, and the Queen keeps her eyes on the relationship between Hong Lim and the King with a reluctant view. Meanwhile, the bilateral relation between Goryeo and the Yuan gets worse as Yuan demands to install the cousin of the King in the Crown Prince of Goryeo with ascribing it to no son the King has. The King refuses it resolutely, so the high-ranking officials of Goryeo, who are in submission to Yuan, are discontented with the king. One day, the King gives Hong Lim a covert yet unobjectionable order to sleep with the Queen instead of himself to protect the independence of Goryeo from the Yuan by making a son, the successor to Goryeo throne.

Starring: Jo In Sung, Joo Jin Mo and Song Ji Hyo

My ratings: 8/10

WHAT is 2008 to me??

Happy NEW year to all my families and friends out there!

Let's wish that year 2009 will be a better one for all of us....

Yes.... Went through friends' blogs...... all penning down wat they have achieved in 2008 and their 2009 resolutions etc..... So was running thru my head on what i had done in 2008 and wat i wan in 2009..... GUESS wat?! NOTHING!!! BLANK!!!

2008 wasnt a good year for me.... I GUESS slightly suffering depression in the early of the year... i lost 2 kins.... One of whom is my grandfather whom i always respected since young....Sometimes I REALLY miss him now that he is not around....

First of all, I was back in Sg cos my dad decided tat i shld spend my CNY with my family and in the meanwhile I worked for the $ to continue my studies in Korea....... The approx. 4months in Sg was not paradise i shld say... Though my family and friends were around, I feel so empty and lonely...(i guess its the depression mood tat is working on me tat time) Singapore dun seem to be like my home anymore?! I minimised meeting up with friends so I can save on the money to use in Korea..... HOW SILLY.....I always blamed my dad for asking me back cos if not for the break in between I would have graduated already...

So all the gar-rang show and stuff that happened in my life..... TEARS n stuff....... But again I thanked my dad for insisting that i shld be back so at least i can see my grandpa for the last time..... I guessed I going MAD one day, with spilting personalities.......

Later half of the year, back in Korea, in school with new friends etc.... old friends left...My sis in Korea for work and we went to Pusan for sightseeing etc... Finally friends became lesser and lesser as I progressed into another level......But still I like and enjoy Korea....Not because Junwoo is here but because I know I can take care of myself and need not to be worry of other tings except how I can spend my money wisely.... Maybe because I am trying to escape... escape from reality.... Or simply been selfish.....Or perhaps I was borned a KOreAN in my LAST life...

I havent had any plans for 2008 except to get back to Korea as soon as possible... Nothing fruitful in my memory of 2008. Except remembering that I was crying myself to bed so frequent that I dun even know I have so much TEARS............BT HEY thank god, i pull thru 2008 despite the depression.... GUESS the motivation was to be back in KOREA...

I still remembered talking to a classmate of mine aged 60plus.... He asked me since I like Korea so much why not find a job in Korea... I told him my difficulties and stuff and this was wat he told me and I still remembered "Irin, why are you been so hard on urself?? Things will work out themselves. Why shld u worry?"

Am I being too hard on myself? YUP maybe I tink....

I read Cat's blog.... THANKS Cat for thoughts of fund raising and stuff.... I really appreciate and am touched by that thought of yours.... In fact in tears now.... I too am glad to be able to get to know Ed and be able to show u guys ard in KOrea, the place that I AM IN LOVE in and hopefully you nw know why I like KOrea so much.... But I tink I might have to give up my dream and go back to reality for the time being... I hate that I have to do that bt at least I am not ashame to at least say I HAD TRIED for it before in my life and had a CHANCE to.

ONCE again taking the opportunities to thanks all those who had supported my dream till this far in either monetary form (my dad, sis sponsors), mental strength (Junwoo, ex-sentosians, tiff), materials (jolene for sponsorin ur laptop, LJ for lending me the money for VISA application), physical strength (ah han for helping me with my luggages, cat and my cousin for bringing my stuff back), food supplies (cat, ed, my MUM n my cousin) or cosy hm supplies (the auntie who used to work in our boarding hse).

If not for you I wont b here typing this post... THANK YOU AND I LOVE U ALL!!!!!!! 2008's a history, let's look forward to a better 2009!